Global warming is real.

Heatwave is real.

Struggle is real.

My friend has told me about her plan to go to NZ at the end of this year for holiday and asked for my advice. I told her to just spend her time in the South island so that she can enjoy the scenery slowly. But that's not her way of travel. She wants to visit as much places as she can with the limited time she has. She told me my type of travel is only for people who have the time of the world and she told me I should migrate instead of travel.

Made me realize we were such different people. She is now married with kid. She has a family of her own. Our views on certain things are so different. I told her better not to ask for advice from me because I'm not 'normal'. 

I'm not married. I don't have a husband. I don't have a kid. I don't have tonnes of money. My advice is probably not suitable for you.

She asked me why I didn't go glacier. How would I tell her that my type of trip is doing activities that are free and glacier trip is not cheap. Any activity that needed to money like sky diving, bungee jumping, skiing, snowboarding, whale watching, water rafting, hobbiton visiting, I didn't go to any of those. Instead I just laugh it off and tell her to let me know after she went.

My life is so different than my peers. Tbh, I regretted that I told my friends that I have a gf. I wish I didn't say it out loud last year. Because at the end of the day, she is just an 'empty' partner. The last time we hear from each other is more than a month ago. She is just like a 'good morning' and 'good night' machine. There's no emotional support. No mental support. No social support of any such. 

When I feel sad or when I feel bad, I actually don't have someone to talk to. I used to have one. I can talk trash, I can seek emotional support, I can get strength from. I used to have so much.

But now, I have myself. I have to be strong for myself.